Hey y’all. Thanks for being patient with me. I am working on so many things behind the scenes and I am so excited to share some amazing things and partnerships that are coming up.
I wanted to pop in today to share a bit about what God has been showing me lately. I don’t talk about it much, but I feel like God speaks to me daily. I don’t audibly hear His voice, but I feel like He shows me in things/situations/people.
Lately, my prayer has been asking Him to keep me headed in the right direction. I have spent the past almost two years stretching and growing myself beyond anything that I ever thought imaginable.
I used to live in what I like to call a “happy bubble” although I still battled with mental illness, I was able to control almost every aspect of my life, and that included what situations and people I had to deal with.
When I moved to Minnesota, my bubble was popped, and I was exposed to everything. I kept praying to God to change my situation, or to change or remove a person from my life, and it seemed like those prayers were going nowhere. Things just seemed to get more difficult, I got increasingly frustrated, and I kept questioning why He would bring me here just to keep breaking my heart.
I felt betrayed. I felt more lonely than I ever had been in my entire life. I fell into a deep depression. But it was there in my loneliness that I had revelation after revelation.
God revealed to me that I was supposed to be lonely in that season. My heart was supposed to be broken, so I could lean on Him to put it back together again. Ultimately, I had to surrender to the situation and instead of questioning everything, I started to shift my perspective on things.
And that’s what God has been telling me for almost 2 years. Nothing has necessarily changed, but I have changed. My perspective has changed. I started to embrace each obstacle and figure out how to navigate it.
Trials have still come up, I still have my days, but He keeps telling me that IT won’t get better, I will get better. People will keep letting me down, situations will arise, but what will be different is me.
So everyday I hit the ground running, and each situation I face, i learn how to navigate. I let the situation teach me more and more about myself. God has been building up a warrior inside me, and that warrior is fighting hard every single day.
He’s continued to make me look within myself, and to lean on His word. I now am able to conquer things I never thought I would be able to. And most importantly, I am becoming whole in the process. I feel like now He presents me with obstacles so He can see if what I have learned will actually be put into practice. Because once you KNOW better, you DO better.
I see Him speaking to me through each situation, each person that stabs me in the back, each time I’m cut off in traffic, each time I get a negative comment on the internet. He is challenging me to keep applying what I now know to be true, and to keep growing.
“Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”