I thought I would blog today about something that has been on my heart.
I feel like I need to get it out, so I will have some kind of inner peace.
Today, Brendan attended the funeral of Waxahachie Police Officer Josh Williams. Selfishly, I didn't want him to go.
Sometimes I think that maybe if I don't think about the reality of his job, that maybe it won't be real.
Well, today was definitely a confirmation. The reality is, sadly, my husbands job can sometimes knock me flat on my face.
There are some nights, when I am getting his lunch ready, and I see him getting dressed, shining his shoes, strapping on his bulletproof vest, checking his taser, securing his gun, that I realize, this could be the last time I ever see him do this..
Now, I don't walk around sulking the whole time he is at work, but, it's just a fact that I have to come to terms with.
That one day, I could possibly get a visit from the chaplain informing me of my husbands death.
It pains me to think that all I would have left were years of memories, pictures, and 3 precious, beautiful little boys to carry on his legacy.
I love my husband more than I could ever explain,and his occupation makes me love him even more. He goes to work everyday, risking his life, just to do what he feels that God has called him to do. He has a TRUE servants heart.
He makes sure to tell me that his number one goal everyday, is to get home to his family.
The one thing that keeps my heart intact, is knowing that God has the ultimate hand over his life. I have accepted the fact that one day, he could be taken from me.
I know that if he did die in the line of duty, that he died doing what he absolutely was supposed to be doing, what God created him for, and what he loved to do. I know there is no other way that he would rather leave this Earth.
To my husband, my handsome, intelligent, wise, courageous, selfless husband, I love you more than you could ever know. You truly are my hero, and I thank you for your service, and your dedication to making this crazy world a better place to live in.