I have many titles. First I am a believer and follower of Jesus Christ. I am a husband, a father, I'm black, I'm white, and I am also a police officer. While not one of these titles define me, they all describe me along with many other attributes. But with each category that I find myself in, I have many different emotions.
As a husband, my fear is what my wife has to deal with just for simply being married to ME.
As a father, my fear is that my children, especially my boys, have to grow up in this world. I am afraid that when they grow older and along with them, my brother, my uncles, my cousins, and the rest of the black males in my family and friends are more than likely to be killed or involved in a violent assault from not law enforcement, but from another black male. I am angry that this year alone there has been hundreds of homicides and shootings of black men and no one seems to care other than those that are directly effected. Too many black boys are trying to figure out how to be men because their fathers were taken from them.
As a black and white man in America(the fact that this is an issue is another post) I fear for myself. Being judged by the way I talk, what I wear, how I look, and mostly what I say.
As a police officer I am afraid for my cousin, my best friend, and all the other WHITE male law enforcement officers that I know personally. Right now almost every time they interact with a BLACK male while in uniform they now are labeled a racist or at a minimum, have to overcome the preconceived notion of racism. It is sad, but the truth is, if I were involved in an incident and it resulted in the death of a black person, or any other color person there would not be much media coverage beyond the 24hr news cycle. Every single officer I know will run to the fight and step between you, (no matter your race, sex, or background), and whatever danger you are facing, even if that means losing his life for a complete stranger.
What are we doing about countless murders and shootings this year in Chicago ALONE? Where is the marching and anger of the many young black men whose lives are taken too soon because of violence in their own community?
It is my prayer that I will make my impact and help make the world better one person at a time, one contact at a time, and one day at a time. That we will judge less, and love more. That we will forgive each other and ourselves so that we might be forgiven.
Let's all pray for the family of Alton Sterling, for the two officers, for Baton Rouge, and for our country.